She hates love.

Im so irritated. I dint get my heels today. And i decided the one at topshop wasnt nice anymore. See, fickleminded-ness. urgh. I wonder if i should get the one at p.o.a. Its so pretty, but its high. I dont think i can wear it to school. Everyone would think im a bimbo, wearing pretty heels to school.

School starts tomorrow. And i gotta reach at nine when my lessons start twelve. Thanks to my groupmates for being so kiasu to finish off a proj thats due in 7 weeks. Haha. Sometimes i just wanna laugh, seeing everyone rushing to do finish all the stuff when the due dates still a long way to go. I think its equally competitive in poly. I even have classmates telling me " I could have won u if i have gotten 1 more mark than u. " OH PLEASE. wake up your idea. I dont even care. People are failing and u are saying that when u already gotten an A. What the hell.

Im so full. I think i gained heffalump weight these 2 days. Fine dining is going to kill me someday. Goodnight people. Wake up to another school day.

Saturday, July 30

I went shopping today.

AND i am tempted to buy three pairs of shoes plus another denim skirt plus some pretty (expensive) accessories from perlini's.

Im going shopping again tomorrow. I need CASH. <3>

As i studied in econs, " Resources are limited while human wants are forever unlimited "

Friday, July 29

Im really supposed to be doing some serious homework. Instead, my eyes are glued to the laptop and im writing my second entry of the day. I think im going to be in a bad piece of shit.

At least 3 pages long of essay on " One of your personal experiences which has made a difference in your life. " Frankly, i dont remember anythin that has made a difference to my life. Maybe i should try getting myself knocked down by a car. Aha. Then i'll have something to write. On top of this horrible topic, we have to write somethin thats true and it MUST be inspirational or educational. Forget about faking a story 'cos my dear tutor might ask for evidence for what you have submitted.

Argh. And people thought Character Development was a do-nothing module. In fact, we not only have to write stupid essays, we also have to do community service. HOW NICE, RIGHT?! Im going to die so horribly for not doing my projects. Still, im going to work tomorrow. Im really saving up for my first pair of birkenstocks. I just hope i dont spend my money all away on impulsive buys.

Holidays are ending soon.And i feel like i've wasted most of my time sleeping and doing projects. I WAS SUPPOSED TO GO TANNING AT SENTOSA. I was so looking forward to tanning. Buthen ed had to get himself burnt the day before. And poofs, one day wasted. Im pissed. I really am. I wish holidays were chosen by me. I wished so many things.

Im hungry again.

IM HOME!! Home Sweet Home.

Everythings waiting to be packed but i just cant seem to finish packing it all. -frowns.

Im hungry.

Thursday, July 28

IM MOVING BACK HOME TOMORROW.

Im all smiles =))) , see. I love my house so very much. It actually looks nice.All thanks to the deisigner.

Somehow, i just want to smile all day after so many days of crying.

Tuesday, July 26

Im so ridiculously busy with projects. ARgh.

I hope holidays never end till i want it to.

Friday, July 22

I feel like i would just die if i continued staying here in yishun. Not that i dont appreciate my uncle and aunt for taking me in while my house's undergoing major renovation. But this place is really unsuitable for me! I feel like im going crazy. Its been two weeks since i visited town, this is how boring my life is.Yishuns like so far away from town. I dont have a life anymore. It doesnt help that i realise people are changing and i dont like it at all. I think so much i get depressed just thinking. Sometimes i just feel like i could turn back time.

I've been busy for so long i dont get proper rest. Except today, thanks to killer cramps i cant go to school. I haevnt slept this much for two weeks. I hate everything thats happening to my life. Why do i get cramps when my hols are coming. Screw the world.

FUCKFUCKFUCK.

Saturday, July 16

I have nothing much to say actually. But i just felt like blogging some stuff.

Im so sick of people lying. They can be so convincing that lies become truths and truths become lies. Im dying. Im breaking down.

Slash your wrists and die.

Thursday, July 14

I am fine. I know i am.

Wednesday, July 13

These few days arent good. First i had fever then cough and now a very very bad case of flu. I think its my cousins house. Its so cold that its warmer when u turn on the aircon. The wind is a killer. My sisters gonna be sick soon too. Guess we really are that gu niang.

Sometimes i just have to wonder why life seems very good and the next moment everything crashes down. I think so much i feel like im into depression again. Sometimes u just think what the hell is wrong with the world. I just wished im out of misery. Go away. Hes making my world crumble. Perhaps im better off without him.

I think guys have such a serious problem, they should die.

Sometimes, u just dont feel like living anymore.

Tuesday, July 12

I've been so busy with all the tests lately. Seriously i think im gonna flunk everything. Im still at home this hour, one of my tutorial was cancelled. Drat.I could have slept longer if i knew earlier. Now im deciding if i should skip my fom tutorial which is torturously three hours long. But i think they're giving us our paper today.

HELLOOOO! I seriously need a life here.Life does gets boring.

Sunday, July 10

Some bloody fucker took my thumbdrive. And i know he/she is burning in hell right now. Freaking bastards.
I think im dead for my econs ca. Lifes been kinda boring since yishun is so far away from town. Plus, i gotta wake up early for school, takes me one hour to reach dover. Thats borin. Been talking to my cousin bout how lil freedom we two have. Maybe we should just move out and live together when im 20 and shes 18. Yay. Haha.
Im so bored i wanna die. Nothings good for me to buy. I need more shopping. Goodnights.

Tuesday, July 5

Beckham is in town! and hes at NYP. I cant believe it. Argh. In the main lib now, the lecturer's kinda funny. Haha. It takes me exactly an hour to get to shcool from my cuzzies house. Andand, Its so far away from town. Thats boring.

Tatas.

Sunday, July 3

Say goodbye.

Saturday, July 2

I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
And as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love in suicide

You say you're cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore
Now I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance, girl

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

I know you know we're had some good times
How they have their own hiding place
I can promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday
And Baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drink, I'll be the wine

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

And I wan't there when you were happy
I wasn't there when you were down
I didn't mean to miss your birthday, baby
I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out
I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

Friday, July 1

I watched Initial D last night. I thought I was gonna die right there. Edisons so cute. I felt like i could watch it over and over again! That weird feeling in my heart. I think im really in love with him. Oh god. That show makes me happy. The music, the acceleration noise, screeching tires and edisons face. It made me a happy girl all over.

Andand. I've changed my dream car. I decided i might not want a bmw after all. I want a rx7. I wish i could race too. Makes me wanna drive. GGreat. Im dropping by some shop to get the rx7 car model for my phone.

FOM Ca1 was kinda OKAYE, i guess. But im still not that confident after all.

This world is so fake. It always been one.

Lust Often Love Always.